Yes, it's a painful world right now and the US hasn't helped

I was born in the USA. A long time ago. But until I left it, I didn’t see its truth. I lived in the silo of shared thinking, democratic social focused values, going to school with families from financially mobile families, going to church with mostly white neighbours. My boyfriend, unusually, was the black High School football (US Style) Quarterback. Evenso, my silo was quintessential institutional racism, misogyny, patriarchy, all-right-for-some culture. I was part of the some it was all right for. I didn’t see any of that until I grew the power of hindsight/distance sight. When I traveled outside of the borders of the US, I was part of the only 25% who had passports. Now the number is around 20%. I learnt so much, I could never go back. Wimp.

I tell you all of this to help put in context even the idea of Donald Trump’s impending second term as president of the USA. The vast majority of those in the USA only know their own silos of culture. If you live in a farm twenty miles from another, only see the same people at the same stores you can get to in an hour’s drive, read only what that known community tells you, you are likely to form certain similar opinions as others in your silo. Your chance of changing those opinions is limited; it depends on your capacity to risk losing the very community which raised you. If you are a city dweller, stripped out of any fair rents, relying on rogue landlords and having no social security to pay the bills which are raising, you are not going to trust the government to understand your predicament. Why would you believe now? As one of the two countries on the planet with no statutory maternity pay, why would any candidate be believable now? We in the UK have to understand the almost immovable context of the USA, built as it is on oppression, racism, patriot mythology and all-power-to-the-wealthy. The USA enabled Donald Trump. It got what it made.

Yes, and yet. A huge number of people are now very angry. A huge number. Very, very, substantially, hugely angry. Think of that anger as the birth pangs of a new age. The new age is critical. It never arrives easily or smoothly. It requires us to pay attention to the signs and face up to our role as part of the angry energy which looks to reshape, not to exercise revenge. There is no single group to line up for revenge - the whole 250+ years of the greedy culture of the USA since the 1700s has no single perpetrator or agency.

If, like me, you are part of the angry brigade, hurrah. Let’s focus that anger on doing anything possible to help other people understand the context of people who have been so indoctrinated in unjust cultures (like ours), that change to what we can blatantly see as the ‘right thing’ to do is too hard. Let’s focus the anger on energy to be patient. Let’s focus the anger on the single steps we can take each day to help someone see someone else’s point of view. Anger is fabulously excellent when it energizes justice. It’s a holy divine power. It is ours to use.

So how did all the tours start?! was the question...

…which many of you have asked. So it’s time to tell you.

Way back in the late Autumn of 2022, I was talking with a wonderful woman from a gallery in Rugby as I was preparing to move from 1/3 time artist to full time artist. She liked my work enormously and wanted to sell it. But the more she had it and looked at her client list, she realised that my work needed a more specialist home, saying to me, “you really need a spiritual gallery.” I thought, great, thanks, what’s one of those when it’s at home? Then I realised I’d been exhibiting and selling from spiritual galleries most of my adult life whilst being an artist theologian. They’re called Churches. My early artist days, I’d drawn pastel portraits in shopping centres, took commissions and sold from galleries and street and group exhibits. But once I entered the ministry, those commercial outlets didn’t serve the work I was creating and I started to exhibit in churches and to sell my work to theological publishers. The gallery owner was right. Churches.

Gallery size? Cathedrals. Then I thought, I really want to do this with someone. I want the 40% commission I would have given to a gallery to go to a cause about which I have a passion. Then I recalled a wonderful aphorism - ‘you already know who you need to know for your life to grow.’ I looked at who I knew and the Open Table Network kept grabbing my attention. So I contacted dear Kieran. He and I had worked together on the Appreciating Church Project with his case study of St Bride’s Liverpool being published in the book I illustrated. I suggested that we raise money for OTN by having a partnership to place my artwork around Cathedrals and large churches in the UK where there is either an Open Table community in existence or there is a desire for one. He took the idea to the OTN Trustees who liked the idea. Then we started to look for Cathedrals.

My closest cathedral was Coventry, and possibly also my most favourite on the planet, so I visited and found out who to contact. I emailed. One email. The reply was instant - yes, please, and can it be February 2024 for LGBTQ+ history month? I replied, well, yes. Kieran and I were flabbergasted and Coventry opened the doors to all the other Cathedrals and Churches we asked. A few said no, because their congregations or communities "weren’t ready”, but the response was overwhelming. The Open to All tour was planned.

The Open to All tour was so welcomed that we were asked to go to more places than we had time for. So I pulled together another set of artwork which I called the Spirit Justice tour and four more venues were added to the list of eleven we had engaged for Open to All. Along the way, we received a grant from the Westhill Endowment to fund some of the traveling and accommodation expenses and many individual churches have helped with expenses.

At the end of the road, all the easels from Open to All now live at United Church Winchester because they decided that connecting with their community through art was a good way forward for them. We raised nearly £4000 in total for a combination of the Open Table Network and anti racist charities. The signature artworks from Open to All and Spirit Justice now live in permanent public venues where their messages will continue in perpetuity. We have been amazed.

Witness will be witnessing to visitors from around the world

My dear Witness, the signature painting of my website and the signature piece of the Spirit Justice tour, has a new home. At the moment, it has been purchased by the good people of Aberdeen United Reformed Church and rests in a temporary waiting place. The new home is to be St Mary’s Chapel in the OpenSpace Trust.

From the Open Space Trust website: “Welcome to the OpenSpace Trust. The Trust was set up in 2005 and took the present name in 2008. It is a registered charity and a company limited by guarantee.

The vision is to create a vibrant space, in the heart of the City, within the significant heritage of the building (parts dating back 1,000 years) for the people of Aberdeen and visitors to use and enjoy.

The main focus for the OpenSpace Trust at present is to deliver the Mither Kirk Project. Already the Trust has undertaken the archaeological dig and completed the work required to the exterior fabric of the building. The next phase of their work will be construction of the interior to create OpenSpace.”

St Mary’s Chapel is scheduled to be open this month - St Mary’s Chapel. When it is installed, I’ll update you, and it is all quite exciting. The purpose of Witness is to gather people to see what the viewers in the painting see - energy, light, a non-anxious gathering. I’ve written and spoken about it here. It seems a perfect image to gather people from around the world into a non-anxious presence to witness a welcome light together.

No they don't...

Now for some random thoughts. I had a deep conversation with someone this week, where they were looking for hope in their current life by reaching for the “Things happen for a reason” rationale. This is the “this must be good for me, it will all make sense in the long run” rationale. “God has this in His [sic] plan” is often the unspoken root phrase, coming to us from multiple sources over generations/eons. I gently lead you to the title of this blog. No they don’t. Things don’t happen for a reason, they simply happen.

 

We can see that sometimes there is a line of agency, like a domino set up where if one pushes, the others fall in perfect time. I’ve seen amazing live sculptures of coloured domino-like blocks and it is incredible to watch. The reason they work is that each block is the same shape in a carefully placed relationship to the other blocks, the same room and conditions, and more. That’s not life. Our lives are not neatly shaped blocks in a carefully designed context, 99% the same as the life next to us. Not only did God not design us that way, God has no time for such seamless conformity in our world. Justice and love demand moment by moment interpretation and a behaviour right now which might be different than yesterday and might not be the same as tomorrow.

 

We can, when we look back, see that the consequence of a Thing Happening was that we learned something momentous. We can see that we changed to be more hopeful or more confident or more aware from that Thing. That’s fabulous. But the Thing wasn’t designed for us for that particular learning. It simply happened. We could have been the agent or the victim in the situation. A Thing caused an action, a response happened, a difficult thought happened, hard words were said, laughter had. Whatever. God’s plan is not a day to day agenda which we are simply actors on God’s strings. We’re created for wisdom and love and analysis and relationship. We’re made to look deeply at or into the Thing, to see what is happening and to use our gut to decide what to do – this time.  We may have experience to bear on it and help us to move in it and celebrate the learning.

 

Mostly, the Things which happen to us are beyond our control.  Some other person decided something rational or not, some institution has become unworkable, some situation blew out of all proportion and gathered us in.  Knowing this, we can refine how we respond to the Thing by focussing on only that which we can do. I’ve written about not feeling in control before.  

But what about tomorrow? Can we hope? Will life ever be simple? No, life will never be simple. That’s just how it is. We humans are complex, the life around us is not simple, the systems around us are not neat. We can hope that everything will be kind and more loving and we can behave as if it already is.  We can chose to see Things as simply things, not things brought to teach us some divine lesson. They happen. Our reaction to them is where we gain our lives and our hope and our courage.

 

Things don’t happen for a reason. They happen. We respond in hope and courage.

 The picture below is a sermon preparation, with drawings interpreting the scripture readings. My summary was that we are held in love to be as angry or loving as we like. We are not operated like robots; we are held, lovingly, as we are intensely, complexly and randomly human.

"Challenging but wonderfully welcoming"

I’m so delighted with this whole story written by Open Table Network that I’ve decided to share it with you to say their own words https://opentable.lgbt/our-news/2024/9/10/challenging-but-wonderfully-welcoming-exhibition-tour-closes-with-gift-to-open-table.

More Exhibitions?

If you had one of my exhibitions and want another, or if you missed out on hosting one of the Open to All or Spirit Justice stops, there is another chance. I have a set of paintings, Octave, owned by the Westhill Endowment. They are part of the Create Talk set of artwork which the Endowment loans, for free, to churches and community centres. I’m rather proud of the Create Talk brand, https://www.westhillendowment.org/faith-exhibits, as that is the name of the project I led for the United Reformed Church from the Mission department for three years. Rather than stopping the brand, and more importantly the purpose of linking churches with their communities via the visual arts, the URC gifted the brand to Westhill.

My own exhibition now part of Westhill is found here https://www.westhillendowment.org/octave. Reports of its impact with schools and local organisations shows excellent engagement and conversations. If you want this for your churches, please be in touch with Westhill!

Keep going!!! Says one...

Kieran, Open Table Network Director, and their Trustees and I had no idea that the Open to All tour would be so amazing on so many levels. We just decided to do it because it seemed to be a good and interesting idea. It felt a bit inspired, but didn’t blow us away. We just cracked on. We made a good enough case for purpose for the Westhill Foundation to help sponsor it and there was enough interest from churches for a good number of them to sponsor with direct expenses.

But it has been so very much more than any of us ever expected. First, it spawned the Spirit Justice tour. I had enquiries about taking Open to All to more churches and by time of receiving those invitations, we were booked. So I pulled together other artwork which I’d had in mind to tour and suggested that. As I write, Spirit Justice and Open to All are in their last venues of both tours. It has been incredible.

Winchester’s Church Secretary summed it up for me, “It has been everything we hoped for. It brought people over the threshold, it introduced us to people in the community we didn’t know, it has raised the profile of God’s and our own inclusion.” The Dean of Coventry remarked that the paintings allowed the Cathedral to illustrate what it has already been saying. The individual conversations I’ve had at each venue have been treasured moments.

We’ve seen a lot of rain, a lot of road and an enormous amount of unfailing hospitality. Help has been ready at hand, warmth has been flowing to take us in and support us. Pete and I have become quite the set up and close down specialists and our red Berlingo Abi has been awesome. Yes, we would do it again. The depth of conversation and faith to make community differences is the fantastic pay-off for us. Let alone the money raised to help support the Open Table Network and anti racist charities. Yes, we would do it again.

Please contact me if you would like prints. The following formats are available. All prints on paper are sold on ivory mounting board. Frames may be ordered. Prints on canvas are stretched on wood.

Art Prints: Art Prints are created with laser printers onto quality wood pulp art paper.

Gallery Poster: Gallery Poster is a typical art gallery format with laser printer on poster paper, supplied rolled in a tube.

Giclee Prints: Giclee Prints are inkjet sprayed onto quality cotton rag paper. They’re known for their vibrant colours, fine details, and archival quality. The term "giclee" comes from the French word meaning "to spray," referring to the precise inkjet spraying process used in their production. They’re guaranteed to last at least 100 years (though no one’s been alive long enough since development to know…)

Embellished Giclee Prints: Embellished Giclee Prints are customised by me adding details, textures, or hand-drawn elements to make each cotton paper print unique. The result is a print that combines the advantages of digital printing with a personal touch.

Giclee Prints on Canvas: Giclee Prints are inkjet sprayed onto artist canvas material. This gives the print a texture and appearance similar to a traditional painting on canvas so that they resemble original paintings.

Embellished Giclee Prints on Canvas: Embellished Giclee Prints on Canvas are customised by me adding details, textures, or hand-painted elements to make each print unique. Embellishments added on top of canvas give the print a more three-dimensional painterly effect.